this morning. it felt like the middle of the night when my body decided to wake up. thud.! the the sound of my right foot as it hit the ground & then i tried to convince my left foot to follow. not happening. life felt heavy. should i go back to sleep, should i skip my walk, should i take a personal day, what should i do?  bad news friday was pretty major stuff. i couldn’t see it on friday. it needed to settle in. oh & it has because it is occupying a large amount of space in my head & heart. oh hey, it’s freaking heavy.! people ask & often: why do you walk so many miles, why do you practice yoga, why do you meditate, why do eat well, why do you drink tea, why do you take so many pictures, why is music so important to you? not in that order & not at the same time but people do wonder about my lifestyle & some probably want to ask when do you have fun? today i was reminded that it’s pretty darn cool to have an arsenal of good habits deeply grooved into my core. you guys, i did not plan a post-work retreat but i found myself in the most gorgeous park, sitting on a bench, taking pictures, listening to music & breathing. paying attention to my breath? i swear i looked normal & it was just what i needed. just like the splash of warm sun on my face this morning & the tea & chocolate for dinner. perspective.