august 31, 2010. the goodbye lingered. a longing for something but definitely not what i had. the new home was - for all intents - lovely. but it never felt like home. i never felt at home. not in the space or my body. heart contractions for the past two years. most of them were fast, hard, unexpected. the ache of depression, my goodness. religion was found in my running shoes. early morning river runs, chasing the sun whether it was golden or not. there was purpose in practicing, it showed me this is where you are, this is who you are. Right Now. to bathe in the glory of the heat created along the way. i did that. there’s vitality in my breath, i am in control of the pace. keep moving. there’s more, so much more to share. i will, in time. for now, i will leave you with this: i have heard and read that depression is a symptom of self-hatred. but love got me through it. i longed to feel it again. i was determined. i believed in the hurt … until heart swells returned. wonderful, really. here’s to a new home. with love and a blue moon this evening. august 31, 2012.

august 31, 2010. the goodbye lingered. a longing for something but definitely not what i had. the new home was - for all intents - lovely. but it never felt like home. i never felt at home. not in the space or my body. heart contractions for the past two years. most of them were fast, hard, unexpected. the ache of depression, my goodness. religion was found in my running shoes. early morning river runs, chasing the sun whether it was golden or not. there was purpose in practicing, it showed me this is where you are, this is who you are. Right Now. to bathe in the glory of the heat created along the way. i did that. there’s vitality in my breath, i am in control of the pace. keep moving. there’s more, so much more to share. i will, in time. for now, i will leave you with this: i have heard and read that depression is a symptom of self-hatred. but love got me through it. i longed to feel it again. i was determined. i believed in the hurt … until heart swells returned. wonderful, really. here’s to a new home. with love and a blue moon this evening. august 31, 2012.

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